But the loss of religion, shame and guilt left me without morals. Quite by chance, I found that I was amoral by choice.
No, Doesn’t Always Mean No
I’ve been raped twice already so it’s not like I believe in my own self-worth enough to even make a legitimate attempt to refuse you.
Beware of Feeding Sharks
Addiction might be called a curse, but that’s only one way to look at it. Alcohol addiction used to be a way of tapping into a power I didn’t have, a release of pain I had trapped inside me.
Could You Stop Drinking In An Alcoholic World?
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What it’s Like to be a 24 year Old Alcoholic
It’s not what I know I’ve done. But what I don’t know I’ve done. Yawning black holes of nothingness taunt me with their awful possibilities.
Quelling Anxiety with the Oblivion of Alcohol
I knew, even at 21, that my ‘off’ button didn’t function in the same way as other people’s. I lost 4 pairs of shoes out drinking over the course of 2 years.
Why I Don’t Regret Being Sober in Dublin
I’m no longer sorry I didn’t get drunk in Dublin all those years ago. I’m only sorry I didn’t realise earlier that my sorrow, was a waste of time.
How Alcohol Made Me Love Myself
And in an instant, late at night, I changed. This person was in pain. Ugly and blank. My features were twisted into a belligerent mask.